Pride Matsei, Hatfield, Gauteng, South Africa

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WHAT A WASTE OF LOVE!___

So, we sit still, motionless. 
Listening to the silence sipping through the Dark cracks of what we once called... us

So we,
Listen to the echoes of what might have been memories of the good times we've never had.
Peering into your eyes trying to find the soul you said you have... none

Trying to find words I should've said the very first day I laid eyes on you,
I am sorry I am not what you need from me... 
I am sorry I am Not what you define love to be.
I am not a replica of whom you once had. 
I am not a body programmed with multiple personalities of the people in your fantasies 
I am tired of being him.

So here I am... 
Standing at the back door of my own heart... 
Again 
Hoping not to find you convincing it that you are a necessity to it's function.
With the hope to let myself in and give me a sound apology

Flashback...
To the day the mirror had my own exact reflection on it, and the thoughts I had were my own...
To the day I left my own self to be with you
To the day I abandoned all I was for all you wanted to have. Selfish...

When you twisted every inch of me into heaven knows who?
A personality, puppeteered like Pinocchio on strings you left me hanging...
Like a body left lifeless of the person It used to be. What a shame

So I give in... Not even I would want to talk to myself when there's nothing left of me
Not even I would love myself the way you never did

This is it... I am letting go 
Of every part of me I betrayed by subjecting myself to the love you gave
I am letting go... of the person you created in me while neglecting everything I am and wanna be... 
What a waste of "LOVE"
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